Scared....

She always said it but I couldn't comprehend - "Y'know ibrahim the world has become very different. People are extremely selfish and self-centered. Extremely materialistic and focussed on themselves and nothing else. I feel I am not part of this world really" Well, me being a "man of the world" always brushed it aside and said that this is how it always was and there is nothing odd about it. Some people are good and some, bad. There was nothing weird about it, she was unnecessarily creating a fuss in her head. Anyway, this happened quite recently - came across one such person who suddenly made me realize how morals have become so meaningless. To be quite honest, there is no wrong which has taken place as yet. But there was an extreme sense of disgust and repulsion that I feel for the person. I had come across one such person earlier too but i guess the reality hit home now. Slowly and slowly I feel detached from the people around me. I guess I am not them. Nor can I tolerate all this.

What bothers me is that this is not such a big deal really (all that where it stems from). One primary reason for this - I have no right to speak on the matter or even voice an opinion as I it is someone else's private matter. But I don't like it and have a very strong opinion in this case. A strong opinion? Why? No reasons.

I am sensing a change in me....my eyes are opening......my time's coming.....my capabilities are going to grow manifolds now....or rather I shall learn what I am capable of.....

It's coming....and I am scared.