Who's a leader?
I have always believed a leader is one who stands up while everyone else is crouching under the table. They come in when you have your back against the wall, when there seems to be no way out, when the rats have already fled the boat, when every trust sinks. To make it less dramatic, when the going gets tough. I do not touch upon the fact whether all those who have done so have done the right things after that. This is just about who's a leader - good or bad is something we all talk in retrospect.
Today I heard something which pleasantly made me think - a leader is one who is capable of catching the pulse of the race. A leader is one who reads the writing on the wall even before it appears. A leader is one who hears the unheard.
A worthy thought indeed....
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
You
You walk behind me.
You walk beside me.
You walk with me.
You feel me.
You hold me.
You protect me.
You bless me.
You carry me.
You feel me.
You cry with joy when I laugh.
You cry in pain when I scream.
You weep when I am sad.
You feel me.
You get angry when I display arrogance.
You scold me when my stupidities don't cease.
...and yet you watch over me.
You feel me.
You surround me.
You shield me from harm.
You lift me when I feel small.
You play with me whenever I need someone.
You feel me.
I feel you in me.
I feel you with me.
I feel you around me.
I feel you.
You fell in love with me when you saw me.
....I fell in love with you when I felt you.
You walk beside me.
You walk with me.
You feel me.
You hold me.
You protect me.
You bless me.
You carry me.
You feel me.
You cry with joy when I laugh.
You cry in pain when I scream.
You weep when I am sad.
You feel me.
You get angry when I display arrogance.
You scold me when my stupidities don't cease.
...and yet you watch over me.
You feel me.
You surround me.
You shield me from harm.
You lift me when I feel small.
You play with me whenever I need someone.
You feel me.
I feel you in me.
I feel you with me.
I feel you around me.
I feel you.
You fell in love with me when you saw me.
....I fell in love with you when I felt you.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Forgiveness
Allah dohaai hai.
Betaabi chaayi hai
Mushkil judaai hai
Haan....tere pyaar mein....
My biggest problem...my honesty. My bluntness. Now don't get me wrong, I am not one of those self conceited characters who believes he is the epitome of honesty, integrity etc. Infact, I have very little faith in my own abilities to remain on the right path.
I carry strong opinions over most subjects. This opinion can sometimes cause distress, hurt to people close to me. Done this again.
I seek forgiveness. I sincerely do.
(lyrics courtesy: Race - Race is on my mind)
Betaabi chaayi hai
Mushkil judaai hai
Haan....tere pyaar mein....
My biggest problem...my honesty. My bluntness. Now don't get me wrong, I am not one of those self conceited characters who believes he is the epitome of honesty, integrity etc. Infact, I have very little faith in my own abilities to remain on the right path.
I carry strong opinions over most subjects. This opinion can sometimes cause distress, hurt to people close to me. Done this again.
I seek forgiveness. I sincerely do.
(lyrics courtesy: Race - Race is on my mind)
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Scared....
She always said it but I couldn't comprehend - "Y'know ibrahim the world has become very different. People are extremely selfish and self-centered. Extremely materialistic and focussed on themselves and nothing else. I feel I am not part of this world really" Well, me being a "man of the world" always brushed it aside and said that this is how it always was and there is nothing odd about it. Some people are good and some, bad. There was nothing weird about it, she was unnecessarily creating a fuss in her head. Anyway, this happened quite recently - came across one such person who suddenly made me realize how morals have become so meaningless. To be quite honest, there is no wrong which has taken place as yet. But there was an extreme sense of disgust and repulsion that I feel for the person. I had come across one such person earlier too but i guess the reality hit home now. Slowly and slowly I feel detached from the people around me. I guess I am not them. Nor can I tolerate all this.
What bothers me is that this is not such a big deal really (all that where it stems from). One primary reason for this - I have no right to speak on the matter or even voice an opinion as I it is someone else's private matter. But I don't like it and have a very strong opinion in this case. A strong opinion? Why? No reasons.
I am sensing a change in me....my eyes are opening......my time's coming.....my capabilities are going to grow manifolds now....or rather I shall learn what I am capable of.....
It's coming....and I am scared.
What bothers me is that this is not such a big deal really (all that where it stems from). One primary reason for this - I have no right to speak on the matter or even voice an opinion as I it is someone else's private matter. But I don't like it and have a very strong opinion in this case. A strong opinion? Why? No reasons.
I am sensing a change in me....my eyes are opening......my time's coming.....my capabilities are going to grow manifolds now....or rather I shall learn what I am capable of.....
It's coming....and I am scared.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Quest from within....
Choo loon main, itna karein....
Chal padoon, tou kitna door....
Missed me? Well, you would if you were reading this blog. Sadly, no one does other than me. So, it's good to be back....now, if you are expecting something radically different (or even just different for that matter), well you are in for surprise....there isn't going to be any :-)
Anyway, life's moving along. Studies are just about ok. Not very happy with how I have handled Corporate Finance ( should have done a better job). Anyway it's not too late. I am sure I will cover it up. Again, that's not really important. What's more important is that I am back to write what I would like to read later....! Now let me figure out what I would like to read the next time I open this blog.....
The same questions keep coming back to me -- if I think this MBA is worth it or not and somehow people around me are more worried about the answer,then I really am. Infact, I am at peace over this decision. I know this is the right decision.
Events in the last couple of weeks.....
We had this professor who had come over to teach us Oral......(no) Communication....got your hopes hi, huh? Well, anyway, total crap, quite honestly. I really creamed her in the feedback....again ,this is irrelevant. What's more important is that this lady was amazing at face reading. I, out of my ego, refused to see her till Aseem went and she read Aseem unbelievably well. It was truly amazing. I can probably read the guy this well having spent a large part of my last 3 years with him but someone who's probably done just 3-4 sessions, can she really do it? Yes, she did. Simply amazing. Then I made the trip too, and she actually read me very well. She told me and aseem both that we were leadership material. Infact, she mentioned that aseem and I were "xerox copies" of each other w/o knowing that aseem and I know each other prior to joining this MBA. I was really impressed ( it also had a lot to do with the fact that she praised both of us separately to high heavens.....that was nice.....c'mon who doesn't like to be praised)
Spoke to Gaudy....the new IJP for Project Managers is out. Nice. Gaudy gets to become one this time. He actually deserved to be one looking at those who did become the last time. He just made huge faux pas. I am sure Pradipta or Raman won't let it happen this time. The guy's good and you can't ignore his capabilities just because of some stupidities in an hour of interview.
Went over to Abu Dhabi to see Ayesha. This was the first time I went home since coming over 2 months back. As soon as I am in AD, I feel like I am home. Dubai just does not give me that feel. Abu Dhabi is home. I know that AD too has changed a lot since I was here roaming the streets but yet, it's home. Was nice to be home. On top of that, good to see Ayesha, Chip and the little ones.
I have also decided to read and understand the book of knowledge. I shall read the Holy Quran. The book has knowledge and I want that. This is probably just another way of looking for peace that has eluded me for years. I need it. I hope that knowledge is bestowed upon me and I do not misuse it. With knowledge comes great responsibility. I look forward to it.
Spoke to her. It's always nice to hear her. She's an angel. Beautiful. Simply beautiful.
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
Don't cheat the person you love. If you think that she is not meant for you, say it, accept it and end the relationship. Don't drag it. It's not helping her. It's not helping you. But you must know what you really want. In love, I believe, it's more important to be honest than a good samaritan. There is nothing as a good samaritan in love. Honesty comes before conscious. Here again, honesty with oneself before honesty with the one you care for (please note I do not use the word 'love' here - you probably don't love the person any longer - you probably never did).
Either you are in love or you are not. End of it. And everyone knows where they stand. Accept it. Don't run from it. You can't. The more you run, the more you are digging a hole for yourself.
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
One last thing...I beat Aseem in Snooker.....well he gave me 40 to start with. Trust me, I lost twice with that kind of a score to start with. This guy's amazing. A treat to watch. I haven't seen too many people playing but this guy is simply amazing. We have this other guy who says he is an ex-state champion. Aseem can beat that guy any day he wants. Y'see, Aseem's someone on whom I can bet my life on almost anything he does. This is the faith I carry in him. Back to the point....Amazing snooker player....Superb! That's not the point dimwit....I beat him..yeah!!!!
(lyrics from Mera Jahaan from Taare Zameen Par)
Chal padoon, tou kitna door....
Missed me? Well, you would if you were reading this blog. Sadly, no one does other than me. So, it's good to be back....now, if you are expecting something radically different (or even just different for that matter), well you are in for surprise....there isn't going to be any :-)
Anyway, life's moving along. Studies are just about ok. Not very happy with how I have handled Corporate Finance ( should have done a better job). Anyway it's not too late. I am sure I will cover it up. Again, that's not really important. What's more important is that I am back to write what I would like to read later....! Now let me figure out what I would like to read the next time I open this blog.....
The same questions keep coming back to me -- if I think this MBA is worth it or not and somehow people around me are more worried about the answer,then I really am. Infact, I am at peace over this decision. I know this is the right decision.
Events in the last couple of weeks.....
We had this professor who had come over to teach us Oral......(no) Communication....got your hopes hi, huh? Well, anyway, total crap, quite honestly. I really creamed her in the feedback....again ,this is irrelevant. What's more important is that this lady was amazing at face reading. I, out of my ego, refused to see her till Aseem went and she read Aseem unbelievably well. It was truly amazing. I can probably read the guy this well having spent a large part of my last 3 years with him but someone who's probably done just 3-4 sessions, can she really do it? Yes, she did. Simply amazing. Then I made the trip too, and she actually read me very well. She told me and aseem both that we were leadership material. Infact, she mentioned that aseem and I were "xerox copies" of each other w/o knowing that aseem and I know each other prior to joining this MBA. I was really impressed ( it also had a lot to do with the fact that she praised both of us separately to high heavens.....that was nice.....c'mon who doesn't like to be praised)
Spoke to Gaudy....the new IJP for Project Managers is out. Nice. Gaudy gets to become one this time. He actually deserved to be one looking at those who did become the last time. He just made huge faux pas. I am sure Pradipta or Raman won't let it happen this time. The guy's good and you can't ignore his capabilities just because of some stupidities in an hour of interview.
Went over to Abu Dhabi to see Ayesha. This was the first time I went home since coming over 2 months back. As soon as I am in AD, I feel like I am home. Dubai just does not give me that feel. Abu Dhabi is home. I know that AD too has changed a lot since I was here roaming the streets but yet, it's home. Was nice to be home. On top of that, good to see Ayesha, Chip and the little ones.
I have also decided to read and understand the book of knowledge. I shall read the Holy Quran. The book has knowledge and I want that. This is probably just another way of looking for peace that has eluded me for years. I need it. I hope that knowledge is bestowed upon me and I do not misuse it. With knowledge comes great responsibility. I look forward to it.
Spoke to her. It's always nice to hear her. She's an angel. Beautiful. Simply beautiful.
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
Don't cheat the person you love. If you think that she is not meant for you, say it, accept it and end the relationship. Don't drag it. It's not helping her. It's not helping you. But you must know what you really want. In love, I believe, it's more important to be honest than a good samaritan. There is nothing as a good samaritan in love. Honesty comes before conscious. Here again, honesty with oneself before honesty with the one you care for (please note I do not use the word 'love' here - you probably don't love the person any longer - you probably never did).
Either you are in love or you are not. End of it. And everyone knows where they stand. Accept it. Don't run from it. You can't. The more you run, the more you are digging a hole for yourself.
Akela nahi main, khuli ankhon se neend mein chalta....
Girta zyada kam sambhalta.....
One last thing...I beat Aseem in Snooker.....well he gave me 40 to start with. Trust me, I lost twice with that kind of a score to start with. This guy's amazing. A treat to watch. I haven't seen too many people playing but this guy is simply amazing. We have this other guy who says he is an ex-state champion. Aseem can beat that guy any day he wants. Y'see, Aseem's someone on whom I can bet my life on almost anything he does. This is the faith I carry in him. Back to the point....Amazing snooker player....Superb! That's not the point dimwit....I beat him..yeah!!!!
(lyrics from Mera Jahaan from Taare Zameen Par)
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